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[12 Jan 2004|12:54am] |
An excerpt from my (libertat venias)journal:
"f i were rich...and i'd find all the stray animals in the world
and build a big house for them and i'd adopt like 50 billion
of those little starving kids in sad commercials..."
just thought that was funny.
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[11 Jan 2004|10:42pm] |
There's a calm surrender to the rush of day
When the heat of a rolling wind can be turned away
An enchanted moment, and it sees me through
It's enough for this restless warrior just to be with you
And can you feel the love tonight
It is where we are
It's enough for this wide-eyed wanderer
That we got this far
And can you feel the love tonight
How it's laid to rest
It's enough to make kings and vagabonds
Believe the very best
There's a time for everyone if they only learn
That the twisting kaleidoscope moves us all in turn
There's a rhyme and reason to the wild outdoors
When the heart of this star-crossed voyager beats in time with yours
-Elton John
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[07 Jan 2004|11:56pm] |
THINGS I WANT TO LEARN
1. All of the PsOTUS in order
- All of their opponents
- The PsOTUS' campaign issues/promises/etc.
- that (^) of their opponents
- Their greatest achievements once in office
- What brought on their downfall, assuming they had one
- Anything extra... little things like Taft's tub and Lincoln's pet turkey
2. More about the Constitution, including all of the amendments, articles, etc.
3. Physics (all the stuff Sean and I were discussing today. Quantum Theory, String Theory, General Relativity, Loop Quantum Gravity, etc.)
4. The names of constellations and be able to find them in the sky.
5. Past wars (what/when/why/what they produced/what happened in them)
6. To speak the following languages fluently: Greek, Italian, Spanish, French, Korean, Portuguese (more may be added or some removed)
THINGS I WANT TO DO:
1. Visit* every state in the USA
2. Visit each of the countries in SA, NA, EU, and Asia.
3. Visit quite a bit of the countries in Africa and maybe go to Australia, as well as Antarctica
4. Own a penguin or two
5. See all of the great wonders of the world
6. Climb some Mtns. (I'll have to really look in to which ones... not sure yet)
7. Run/Jog/Walk/Wobble/Crawl from here to Maine and also Drive or Run/Jog/Walk/Wobble/Crawl to California
8. Tour the White House
9. Get married, own my own house, have a steady job, have children, etc. (not necessarily in that order)
10. Backpack through Italy
11. Produce my own magazine
12. Hold some kind of part in a movie that makes it to full screen in cinema theater
13. Read all of the "Classics" (to be listed later)
14. Read the entirety of the Bible
15. Spear a fish
16. Go deep-sea fishing
17. Catch a fish with a bow and arrow (can you tell I dislike fish?)
18. Go scuba diving in search of treasure or ships lost at sea (will also require much research)
19. Learn to play the guitar, harmonica, and trumpet
* By "visit", I don't mean drive through really quickly and catch a glimpse or a take a photo. I mean visit as in stay and partake of the deadly foods and be slaughtered by the small masked forest people.
There will be more to come... I just can't think anymore right now.
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[07 Jan 2004|11:08pm] |
I was looking at the moon and watching the clouds pass around it and the stars. It occurred to me that the moon that i was looking at is the same moon that my mom looked at when she was 18 years old. My grandmother and great-grandmother. Millions of people before them and millions to come will look upon that same moon. Anyway, i just thought that it was incredible. I don't know why it suddenly came to my mind, but it was such an awesome thought. Thousands of years ago people looked at that moon and also felt warmth from the same sun as i. It's just... weird to think about it on a grand scale. And just as i can't quite imagine the thoughts and cultures of generations long past, future generations will look back at ours and not even be able to comprehend the things we did or ways we did them. Yet they, too, will cast their gazes upon that same moon and same sun that we do everyday. I guess i just never really thought about it before.
ANYWAY...
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[05 Jan 2004|11:53am] |
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Penguins
(Lyle Lovett)
I don't go for fancy cars
For diamond rings
Or movie stars
I go for penguins
Oh Lord I go for penguins
Throw your money out the door
We'll just sit around
And watch it snow
I go for penguins
Oh Lord I go for penguins
Penguins are so sensitive
Penguins are so sensitive
Penguins are so sensitive
To my needs
Penguins are so sensitive
Penguins are so sensitive
Penguins are so sensitive
To my needs
To my needs
To my needs
To my needs
Penguins are so sensitive
Penguins are so sensitive
Penguins are so sensitive
To my needs
To my needs
To my needs
To my needs
To my needs
To my needs
To my needs
To my needs
To my needs
To my needs
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[05 Jan 2004|11:51am] |
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I'm such a tard. When i was little and saw people getting so crazy over boys, i thought they were stupid. I'd never let myself cry over a boy. Stupid boys. Right now, I'm okay. Despite the fact that i do feel empty and sad, i know that Sean is still my best friend. That will never change and it does make me feel better that i have him there if i need him. I will miss him in a romantic sense, but the friendship we have is important to me and i don't want us to lose touch with that. I'm going to go call him.
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[02 Jan 2004|09:16pm] |
hmmm...i'm in Tennessee, in case anyone is wondering why we're not answering the house phone. You can call my cell, but it costs me money to talk on it, so i probably won't talk for long. Call if you need me, though.
So i think the thing with Stephanie Freeman really hit me new year's eve. Sorry to those who were there to see me crumble. I don't like crying or being upset like that in front of people, but it just... came out. It's been so long... that was the first time i really let myself cry heavily about it. Is that bad? I was sad and depressed, but i never did cry. I didn't cry at the funeral. I always felt bad about that. I guess i just couldn't come to terms with the fact that she was dead. I didn't want it to be true. Like i said, though, it really hit me the other night and, boy, did it hit me hard. I don't want to talk about that anymore, though. The point of this was just to say that I'm sorry to those that i freaked out on and thank you for letting me do so.
I hope heather's doing well. She and i should go out and do stuff more often. She's a really cool person and i miss seeing her.
Grades are up... but i'm not looking. :)
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[25 Dec 2003|08:53pm] |
::sigh:: I'm a bit... sad. I'm not 100% sure why. It's Christmas. My sister, Katie, came home and i got to see her and I've been having a decent time with friends lately. Nonetheless...I lied when i said i'm a bit sad. I'm really sad. I feel really empty and... not disappointed, but frustrated. I can't write all of this here without a few of you guys assuming that it's about you and taking it in a bad way. I care about all of you and everything, but i'm just really confused, frustrated, and upset right now. It doesn't help that i have massive cramps and that i took too much hydrocodine. My dad has a higher prescription than i do and i took one of his... i'm not feeling so well now. ::sigh:: I feel bad... like i've been in a bad mood all day and i feel like i'm being a b$@%# toward some people. I'm sorry if i have been, and i'll probably call a few of you and apologize. I really just want to curl up in a ball and cry. Part of me wants to be alone, yet part of me doesn't wish that at all. oh well... hopefully I'll be better tomorrow and in the days following.
Merry Christmas, Happy Hannukkah, Happy Kwanzaa, etc.
and a little latin present for those of you celebrating the holiday with the romans,
Fortes fortuna juvat (Fortune favors the brave)
Omnia mutantur, nos et mutamur in illis (All things are changing, and we are changing with them)
Aequam memento rebus in arduis servare mentem (remember to keep a calm mind in difficulties)
amo, quare id facere forasse requiris...Nescio, sed fieri sentio et excrucior (I love, perhaps you ask why I do it...I don't know, but I feel it and I'm tortured.)
Forsan miseros meliora sequentur. (For those in misery perhaps better things will follow.)
post proelia praemia. (After the battles come the rewards)
O! Plus! Perge! Aio! Hui! Hem! (Oh! More! Go on! Yes! Ooh! Ummm!)
Roma locuta est (Rome has spoken)
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| good song.. .haven't heard it in FOREVER |
[21 Dec 2003|09:13pm] |
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Walk blindly to the light and reach out for his hand
Don't ask any questions and don't try to understand
Open up your mind and then open up your heart
And you will see that you and me aren't very far apart
Cause I believe that love is the answer
I believe that love will find the way
Violence is spread worldwide and there are families on the street
And we sell drugs to children now oh why can't we just see
That all we do is eliminate our future with the things we do today
Money is our incentive now so that makes it okay
But I believe that love is the answer
I believe that love will find the way
I believe that love is the answer
I believe that love will find the way
I've been seeing Lisa now for a little over a year
She said she's never been so happy but Lisa lives in fear
That one day daddy's gonna find out she's in love
With a black man from the streets
Oh how he would lose it then but she's still here with me
Cause she believes that love will see it through
And one day he'll understand
And he'll see me as a person not just a black man
Cause I believe that love is the answer
I believe that love will find the way
I believe I believe I believe I believe that love is the answer
I believe that love will find the way
Love will find the way
Love will find the way
Love will find the way
Please love find the way
Please love find the way
<3 Happy Holidays to everyone! Hope all your holiday wishes and dreams come true <3
-Santa's Elf
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[21 Dec 2003|05:16pm] |
I went to the woods because I wanted to
live deliberately. I wanted to live deep
and suck out all the marrow of life.
To put to rout all that was not life,
and not, when I had come to die,
discover that I had not lived.
-Henry David Thoreau
But only in their dreams can man be truly
free. 'Twas always thus, and always thus
will be.
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[21 Dec 2003|02:46pm] |
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i feel sick.... very sick. beefaroni is no longer my friend. queasiness has et in and refuses to subside... ::moans:: no fun.
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[19 Dec 2003|10:08am] |
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I'm coming home today! YAAY! I can't wait to come home. I wanna see LOTR, but if my company's already seen it, we may just do something else. I called a few people my "gang of friends" the other day and one of my ghetto friends said "white peeps ain't got gangs - they's got companies". So... i have a company. Yay for me. ::hugs everyone because I GET TO GO HOME::
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[18 Dec 2003|07:50pm] |
According to queendom.com...
--My family is 65% dysfunctional
--I am 90% sexually pure
--I am 35% Naughty
--I am 10% Bit**
and now i'm done
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[18 Dec 2003|07:16pm] |
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It's almost 7:15pm here on thursday. Every time i begin to write an entry today, i stop and scrap it. I'm not sure what to say... or if i have anything to say. I keep returning, though... starting an entry and then stopping. I have a lot that i could say, none of which i shall. I don't know how i'm feeling right now. I'm happy... but i'm also really sad. I don't feel angry at anyone, but i do feel a tiny bit of it welling up inside of me. It's very weird. I'm really confused by myself right now. I'm sitting here... and i think i'm happy, but then... why do i feel so sad?
I'm gonna make a change,
for once im my life
It's gonna feel real good,
gonna make a diference
Gonna make it right...
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[18 Dec 2003|02:49pm] |
Islept until 11:30am today, then returned to my room. I thought about going back to sleep, but washed my face and forced myself awake, instead. I haven't been very productive today. I made a new wallpaper for my desktop. I'll post it some time, i just don't feel lik dealing with doing it right now. Not that any of you really care to see it, anyway. I talked to both heather and sean today, too. Heather's supposed to call me back when she gets home from school.
She's been going through the same bouts of anger/depression that sean and i experiance sometimes. I hope she feels better after the holidays. She needs to have some time alone to really think about things and figure out what she wants. I like talking to her. She's a lot like me and i like that i can be that close of friends with her and sean.
For now... i just really want to go home. ::closes eyes and taps heels::
....still nothing....
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[17 Dec 2003|06:19pm] |
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Williamsburg, Virginia is a very old timey colonial city. Most, if not all of its tourism is because of the colonial city-walk in downtown WB. Old stores, churches and cemetaries line the streets and people in period dress are often seen gallavanting through the town. When one goes there, they generally sign up for different tours to walk through and be told about the town and its people. My favorite tour is the ghost tour. The tour-guide takes you through the town at night by lantern light and tells "genuine" ghost stories about the places he stops. My very favorite thing about WB, though, is not the tours or the houses. It's not about the people in costume or the band marching through town square. My favorite thing is walking behind the buildings... through their little gardens and out into the fields behind them. Absolutely massive fields of grass with a few sheep and sparse trees. I just want to go runningthrough the fields in the spring breeze... climb up a tree and just sit there, looking out over the never ending perfect land. what a feeling...
i get that same feeling sometimes with other things. It's the feeling of freedom... and of love. The two intertwimed are an incredible thing to behold. Something unmatched by anything, perhaps. Though i may not feel free from my house or from school... there is a little part of me that feels like it's soaring...and it feels so good.
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[16 Dec 2003|10:20pm] |
another good day. they seem to following in that style. I don't want to go back to school tomorrow. I want to stay here. I want to be 28. ::closes eyes and taps heels:: nothing's happening....
I remember when we were driving
driving in your car,
the speed so fast, like I was drunk,
City lights lay out before us
And your arm felt nice wrapped round my shoulder
and I had a feeling that I belonged
and I had a feeling that I could be someone
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[16 Dec 2003|12:52pm] |
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Michael Bolton - Why Me
I wake up while you lie sleepin'
I take one look at you and wonder
Am I still dreamin'
Are you some kind of angel
Come down to save me
Or just some place my imagination's tryin' to take me
What have I done to deserve what I feel
You give me somethin' that's too good to be real
How does a treasure like you fall into my hands
I need to know just one thing
I still don't understand
CHORUS
Why do you love me
Why do you give so much
How do you heal the pain within me
Is it the power of your touch
Now that you've opened up the heavens
For this heart of mine to see
I've become the richest man that I could ever be
Baby why, baby why me
Why me, Why me
I ain't got a clue, maybe just a notion
Sometimes I'm helplessly adrift out in the ocean
I feel like a child with one sole intention
In search of an answer that defies all comprehension
I'm in too deep but that's what you're all about
Got no hope or desire of finding my way out
How does a treasure like you fall into my hands
I need to know that one thing
Can ya help me understand
CHORUS X2
Why do you love me
Why do you give so much
How do you heal the pain within me
Is it the power of your touch
Now that you've opened up the heavens
For this heart of mine to see
I've become the richest man that I could ever be
Baby why, baby why me
Could've been anyone in this world, why me
Every lesson that I've learned
You've come to me and shown me
What it means to be loved(X2)
CHORUS X2
Why me, why me, why me, why me
Help me understand just what you've done to me
'Cause I'm the richest man that I could ever be
Tell me why, tell me why, baby why me
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